Re: Verse; Start; Set

Well hello there from my desk at the corner of my bedroom! I’m typing this while singing along to the no-fail ‘00s to Now public playlist on Spotify as an attempt to downplay the pile of work I still need to face in the coming days and weeks — tonight included, despite having countless sleepless nights the past few weeks already.

I started on another job and I’ve been in for just a month, and the amount of tasks are quite something — if we’re in the conversation of quantifying. BUUUUT, it’s fine. I’m fine. I’d like to believe it is.

Second chances.

I mentioned something about a reversal and here it is. This ‘new’ job is actually me returning to the previous company I had before the last (which was also somewhere I returned to, in short, both companies are exes I had second chances with, both in the same year l m a o) and I’m hoping the heavens will allow for this to work out well. Got burned with my first attempt at getting back with an old flame l o l. But all is well, it’s just that it had to end early. It was an experience.

Now, today, so far — I may have been pushed early to fight head on but the terrain somehow feels familiar I can say I was able to fire a few bullets that hit the targets. Of course there might be misses but this time I could forgive myself and answer back with “how could I possibly know right away lol” and that makes the difference I guess. I still couldn’t figure out why I couldn’t give that leeway to myself last time, I’m seriously bummed about it, but it’s good that I can now. Guess it will just remain a mystery because I’m past that and I no longer wanted to revisit the bad energy surrounding that life phase. Again, it wasn’t because there was mistreatment, conflict or anything, it was just not a match.

Wow, plot twists really do happen huh!?

Just truly grateful that I get to celebrate the upcoming Christmas and New Year vibin’ for real hahaha

It’s 11:28 PM and I’ve got deliverables lined up (ought to finish some while starting on some too) — it’s a holiday and it’s a non-working day today and even though it’s not an ideal scenario, I’d take it. It’s not very, very, very comfortable but I’d like to think it’s something that I can take control of. Like, I can figure it out. In fact, I have not even opened any work file yet but no guilt with writing a blog entry first, checking on our cats and singing along.

On second thought, I might just put the work off tonight and just catch up on it tomorrow l o l. Yeah, I think that’s what I’ll do instead. *wink