Taylor Mason

I am generally not loud with my status at work but last Friday, the level of exhaustion was too much I felt my back was going to break. I planned to run thinking I would be able to log out right on time but a few minutes before 9 in the evening, I couldn’t believe I was still attempting to get on an alignment meeting. I ended up having dinner instead (which I don’t do anymore) yet it felt like I didn’t even have the strength to walk back to my work desk from our dining table. I fortunately managed to get back to my senses for two minutes and cancelled the goddamn meeting because who the hell does that.

When I finally logged out, I took my bath and prepared for my supposedly binge but I was knocked out the moment I crawled up my bed. I woke up Saturday noon and the feeling was familiar, except that it didn’t feel fair, because that feeling — I only feel it after I literally climb up the mountains and walked for very very long. What the fuck. I felt like a robot.

In Billions Season 2, Episode 10, Taylor Mason stepped up and delivered on what was necessary and got $500,000 bonus in an instant. It’s fiction, and I’m not asking for $500,000 instant bonus but this got me thinking — when will the countless back pains and sleepless nights be enough to receive returns from few of the most priceless investments, time and effort? What’s worse is that, at this moment, even the most basic body massage feels forbidden, and it sucks.

It may sound pathetic, but right now, I wish Axe Capital would exist for people who deserve it.